4 Small Steps (14.05.08)

Only 4 small steps
To achieve my goals
Even if I lose
My way
I stay on track

First small step
I take
Is to finish
Year 12
And pass
My TEE
With at 75%

Second small step
I take
Is to join
The Army
And train
With them

Third small step
I take
Is to enroll
In a university
And get 6 degrees;
I want to
Work hard
And be
Better organized

Last small step
I take
Is to leave
The Army
After 25 years
And join
A Games
Design Company
And earn
$400,000 a year

Finally my
4 small steps
Will be completed
And I’ll have you

Another Heartbreak (01.05.08)

Another day,
Another heartbreak,
When will it end?
People loving one another
Just like it’s a game
It’s not a game,
It’s real life;
People die
When they lose love

It’s a waste
For people to die
When they lose love
I’m afraid
For true love;
It’s just not
The same

Forgive their mistakes,
Don’t waste away
Worrying about them
You’re above it all
Forget the destroyers
Of what’s left
Of the sacred thing
Called true love

It’s another day
That you have
Wasted away
Thinking about him;
Hoping for him
To show up
At your door
He never did
Show up
At your door
When you
Realised
He wasn’t
Coming your way
You went through
More unnecessary pain,
Yet another heart breaks

They’re breaking
Everywhere
Seems like
They’re worthless
Pieces of glass
Discarded to
The winds of time

Take their pain,
And throw it
To the wind
The remainder
Of themselves
Will be pure
Of mind
And body

I know
You just
Don’t really
Care about
Their pain
You have
Nothing to gain
By avoiding
Their shame
You just
Hasten the pain

Don’t worry
For too long
It’s all
Gonna end
One day soon
We just
Don’t know when

Someday,
Some night,
We will be
Found out
And a bullet
Will be put
In our heads

There’s no time
To stay and fight;
You know what’s right
There’s only time
To run and hide

Today love is
Used like a weapon;
It causes
Much destruction
Chaos ensues when
Love ends

It’s all at an end
Nothing to do
Except to flee
This world
And pray for
A new one

It’s all over,
There’s nothing left
To fight for
It was a waste
To stand
Against them
In the battle
To beat
The engineers of
Yet another heartbreak

When there is no fight
Left in you
They will come
To take you away
To a place
Where another heart
Breaks all the time;
A place without love,
A place where people
Can’t feel the tender
Touch of somebody else;
A world without love

As I Lay Dying (15.05.08)

As I lay dying
Due to the pain
Of living;
Just thinking
About you
Makes me
Want to
Die even faster

You left me
Here in a field;
Surrounded by roses
To die
Thinking about you

As I lay dying
On a bed of roses
You sit at home
Not even
Caring about me

You might
As well
Of wielded
That weapon
That’s left
Me here
As I lay dying
Thinking about you

As I lay dying
You came
And lay
Next to me;
Our love
Dying with me

I Live My Life (Like I Didn't Before) (23.05.08)

With this
Alleged conformity
Now behind me
I can live my life
Like I didn’t before

I didn’t live before
‘Till I broke free
Of my bonds
That was
Holding me back
From living
Like I should

I live my life
Like I didn’t before;
Partying,
Alcohol,
Drugs
And sex

I’m constantly out
Cold and high
When they
Come and
Find me

I’m high
As a kite
And as
Drunk as
A mule
When you
Come around

I Wonder (07.05.08)

I’m sitting here
In a café
Wasting my life
Wondering about the time,
I’m wondering why
You never showed up
At my door
There will be
No reason
For you to lie

I wonder why
You left me
To feel all lonely
I wonder how
You could leave me
Here all alone

Wasting my life,
Wasting my time
Just sitting here
Thinking about you
I feel so lonely
When I can’t
Be warmed
By you

The coffee is getting cold,
And I’m growing so old
Without you
You’re being stupid
Leaving me there

I wonder who
You could be
Meeting
To stay
Away from me

It's Just Nothing (06.05.08)

It won’t make sense without you,
It never did make sense with you anyway
You know what I’m talking about,
I’m talking about love;
Something I can surrender to
It surrounds us everywhere
Clearing our minds of doubt
Changing us in a way
Nobody can understand

Once you’ve had a taste
You don’t want to go back
To eating something
That just doesn’t taste
As tongue-taunting as love;
There is nothing as sweet as love

It’s an amazing taste;
The sweetest things
In the world
Blended and injected into the air
That’s why they say
‘Love is in the air’

It’s intoxicatingly sickening,
But you can never get ill;
You can only come down with it
And you can’t fight it off
Once you got it
You don’t want to get rid of it

If you don’t want it
It’s just nothing
Over as soon as it started
But you’ll want it to never end

Just A Memory (21.05.08)

The memory of you
Is still fresh
In my mind;
Fleeting flashes
Of what
We used to be
And that’s
More than
Just a memory

The memory
Of the smile
On your face
Reminds me
Of what
We once had

Now every memory
I spend with you
Is just a memory,
An image
From a past
Long gone

I want you
To be more
Than just a memory,
I want us
To be real again
And just
Forget the past

The hope
Of a reunion
Fades when
You become
Just a memory